Psalm 139 is a special chapter to me. It is one that I often turn to if I am having one of those "bad self-esteem" days. Psalm 139:3 is a good reminder for me.
“You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am.”
I always knew about the “path” that I am continually trying to locate and stay on. But telling me where to stop and rest was something I don’t ever remember reading or learning before.
If I had to pin point my location on the path right now I would say that I am at a resting place. I have tried fighting against this rest stop. I can see the road ahead of me and I want to keep moving and reach for the goals that God has me striving for.
The more I fight the harder God tries to hold me in the resting place. Why would I want to fight rest? Looking back on the last few years I am asking myself a lot of questions. Currently I am enjoying the rest. I now know that this is a time of “being still” and taking time to study and prepare for what God has next. I am enjoying it and treasuring this time that I get to spend with my Lord and my family. I am learning and growing tremendously; I have learned to be thankful for this time.
The question arises again. Why did I fight this?
As a society we are driven to succeed. A period of rest could look like laziness and lack of dedication to the calling that God has placed on your life. I was enjoying what I was doing for God, why would I want to stop? I was helping people-- encouraging people to live their lives with and on purpose. I won a National award for my book-- why would I want to stop when everyone was asking when my next book is coming out?
Now that I have chosen to stop and rest I have a clearer vision of what God has in store. It is bigger and greater than anything that I was striving for when I was fighting the rest and something I would have never seen if I did not have this time of rest.
Every moment you know where I am and why I am there. May I continue to be obedient and trust that you know the path better than I may think I do.
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