Denial

I have been playing the part of Jonah really well over the past few years.  I didn't even know I auditioned or that I got the part but I could win an Oscar for my portrayal of the man who tried to run from what God was asking him to do.

Yes, that has been my life, I have been running in the wrong direction for the last few years. 

Filling my life with things 
- not necessarily bad things - 
but things that were taking time and space in a life.

Our family has been going through a time of change over the past few month, even my husband could feel it coming.  We knew we needed to slow down, the trap of busyness had us captured and we were going to break free.

It feels great, ours girls did not need to be in that many activities, they are doing just fine without them.  Now it gives us more family time - we have some competitive games of Dutch Blitz in our house. :)

Just before Christmas my husband and I made a radical decision.  I decided to resign from my office job and stay home.  Not only had we made our daughters busy but I was spinning out of control.  I do the books for my husbands construction company, Living Skies Crochet was increasing in popularity and I wanted to dedicate more time to that.  I was worried about the decrease in money for our family, and my wise husband said that God has always taken care of us and He will continue to do so.  With a heart full of peace and faith I handed in my resignation and I haven't had one thought of regret,

But what I have had is a nagging feeling in my spirit.  I could finally no longer ignore it, I really needed someone to pray with.  Last Sunday I texted my friend with "we need to pray".  As soon as I made my family lunch I headed over to her house and the afternoon was spent sharing and praying.

I left with the word "equipped" in my heart.  God knew that is what I needed to hear.  No matter how little I think of myself, I am in His hand and I have been created for such a time as now.

I can not wait to share more of what God is doing.  If you want to follow along on this journey please "like" my new Facebook page.