Well, I finally did it!  I am so proud of myself. This morning I got up before the rest of my family and sat and wrote in my journal. I have been trying to motivate myself to do this for quite some time. So I set an extra alarm just for me and I got up when it went off!!! That in itself is a miracle! None of my family stirred until my husbands’ alarm went off a half an hour later. It was great I didn’t want my time to end. Maybe I will wake up earlier tomorrow to get more of that coveted time.

I am reading a book from Debbie Macomber. Many may know her as a fiction writer. I definitely enjoyed reading her Blossom Street Series, but the book that I am currently re-reading is her non-fiction book called Knit Together. I am finding that I relate to her on so many levels and I am just soaking up this book and enjoying it.

This morning I was reading from the Chapter “Created for Success”. I have a problem with this whole success thing. I often dummy down my success because I don’t want to be seen as proud or a show-off but my success is something that should be celebrated. Here is why - God gave me my gifts and talents - and by me being recognized for those is a cause for me to celebrate because I was obedient in the use of my gifts, but also it is praise for what God can do. And that I am a huge testimony of. With the choices I have made in my life and the struggles I have every day, I do not deserve the title of National Award winning author. But that title is an obvious sign of what God can do through someone who is willing.

I am often so shy when it comes to talking about my book and its’ award win. But now I have to start changing the way that I think and be willing to share it as a miracle of what God can do. I am denying God the credit for this because I am worried of what people might think. How dumb is that? And some people may judge and think that I am conceited or arrogant but I believe that people who truly know me and know my heart - know without a doubt that it was through my obedience and God’s grace and gifts that I have achieved all that I have in my life.

We have to remember to give credit where credit is due. And know that it is by His strength and not our own that we can truly accomplish great things! 

I have been pondering a lot lately, it's not one specific thing - it is more thinking about our culture, our society and our direction.

I can't seem to spend enough time in the scriptures - seeking truth and hope.

Here is a little of what I have been learning:

​I have studied the book of Esther several times and she is an incredible example in so many ways.  So much is packed into only 10 chapters.  As I was thinking about our current times and what the media is sharing with us - my mind kept going to those words that we hear often from Esther 4.  As Mordecai is inspiring his young cousin he reminds her that there is a purpose for what is happening to her in this time and place, v.14 "Who can say but that you have been elevated to the palace for just such a time as this?"  As I went back to study this scripture again I couldn't believe Esther's reply.  Do you know what she said?  She sends a reply to Mordecai to ask for help, she knew that she needed a support system and she knew she would find it in the faith of her family, now look in verse 16 - "If I must die, I am willing to die."  Esther's wisdom and strength is far beyond her years.  She understands that God can not be manipulated with fasting or any of our earthly techniques and yet she was willing to do what is necessary to save the Jews at the age of 15!

The next scripture that I studied is in the beginning of Acts.  We studied this passage at church on Sunday as our pastor taught about fellowship, but as I turned to chapter two all I could focus on was the word "devoted" that I had highlighted and emphasized at some point in my previous studies.  I like the word "devoted."  I needed to learn more - who is devoted?  what are they devoted to?  why are they devoted?  Whenever I study scripture I ask a lot of questions.  I want to understand, just reading it does nothing for me - I need to take it apart and examine it.  So let's start at the beginning of Acts - what is going on?  We see the ascension of Jesus, Judas is replaced by Matthias and the descent of the Holy Spirit. Peter's sermon at Pentecost began in an exciting ministry as 3,000 believed and were baptized.  Can you just imagine what that would have looked like?  I love baptism weeks at my church - what a celebration!  

It was this group of new believers that devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching and they met together constantly and shared everything they had,  They worshiped together, met in homes for the Lord's Supper and shared their meals with great joy and generosity - all the while praising God and enjoying the goodwill of all the people. (v. 42-27)  Wow!  What an example.

I know that as new believers there is a lot of excitement and thirst for the Word of God, but we should never let that fade.  It's not like we know everything there is and there is no more to learn, no more room to grow, no need to worship.  It's such a time as this to be devoted to studying the truth found in scripture, to praise, to share meals with great joy and generosity.

​Now we are going to travel a little further in Acts to chapter 17 where we meet the Bereans.  The Bereans are my heroes.  I wrote about them before, you can read the blog post here.

Paul and Silas were teaching in the synagogue and the people in Berea were open-minded and they listened eagerly to Paul's message.  They searched the Scriptures day after day to check up on Paul and Silas to see if they were really teaching the truth.  As a result, many believed. (v. 10-12)  Do you see why I like them so much!  

They looked in the Old Testament for final authority as to what Paul and Silas were teaching them.  They were ordinary people who read eagerly and diligently with conscious dependence on God for help to understand His word and what they were learning from Paul and Silas.  To put it plainly they used their brains to seek out the truth.  With all the messages we receive everyday we need to be diligent to seek the truth.

So these are the lessons that I have learned this week:

1. Sometimes you have to choose to do what is necessary, regardless of cost.
2. Be devoted
3. Seek out truth

​I will leave you with a passage that is never far from my mind, found in 2 Timothy 3:16 & 17: 

Life is made up with a variety of seasons.  Each season offers character building exercises, stretches you and hopefully guides you along the path to becoming all that we have been created to be.

Check out this video by Joanna Gaines from Fixer Upper

I watched this video a year ago, and it's message of trust has never left me.

What I have been learning is that even though something is good, it may mean that you have to let it go.

For the past few years I have had a small, fun business called Living Skies Crochet.  I took my passion of creating with yarn and turned it into a business.  I started selling crochet items at markets but found I couldn't keep up to the demand, so I decided to sell the patterns so that anyone that could read a pattern and crochet could make my original designs.  Financially this wasn't a business that I could retire on, but it provided money for groceries and my yarn stash. :)

This past year has been hard on a lot of families in Western Canada due to the low price of oil and our Canadian economy.  My husband is self-employed and some months were harder than others.  Last fall I was in a vehicle accident where I was hit by a drunk driver and my vehicle was totaled.  Sometimes life presents situations where we have to learn to live a new reality.

I have been really working on listening, rather than asking.  When life seems difficult I tend to become rather needy and full of prayers of petition.  But what I have found, is that there is peace and answers if I just remain silent, listen and be still.

​So here I am, closing Living Skies Crochet.  This source of income will be gone at the end of March, and I have such peace about it.

When we get out of our comfort zone and trust God's hand to work in our lives, it creates such a beautiful picture.

I am excited to see the picture evolve in my own life, I know that He is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.. (Eph. 3:20)