I always feel like I am running ahead.  No matter how hard I strive to catch up and reach the goal I always seem to miss it.  This has me feeling so very tired  and worn out.

The phrase "Nothing changes if nothing changes" continues to run through my mind.  As I have been working through the "My Journey" Journal I have learned that it is my mind that needs to change.  I don't need to work harder or try to achieve more in life (that's a relief!)  Most of the goals that I have set for my life are unrealistic goals that I will never attain.  This mindset was stopping me from enjoying my everyday life.   Life is too short, I don't have any more time to waste.

My everyday life is my legacy.  What are those closest to me going to remember about me?  It's not the big accomplishments - it's the little things that I do for my family, it's the way that I treat those around me with respect and encouraging words.  It's the time I commit to praying with our daughters each night and sharing about their day.  It's the example that I set as I open my Bible to study and invite my family into that space to learn together.  It's sitting in the same room with my daughter drinking tea and reading a book.  

It is starting my day with prayer, asking that the Lord's will be done and seeking His will alone.

Join me this week to seek His will in our lives.  I'll warn you that it is easier said than done.  For me it is a constant battle in my mind to seek His will and not my own.  As I have been journaling about this over the past few weeks, I have discovered that I am living more intentionally and finding joy in my everyday life.  The time spent with my family has more purpose, opportunities that I never expected are presenting themselves to me and I feel a connectedness with the Lord that I have been longing for.

If you are joining me in this, give this post a "like" below.  I would be honored to pray with you and for you, just leave a comment or send me a private message and let me know.  We can do this together, life is never a journey that we have to travel alone.

I love questions that make me think! 

This one really made me think.  I posed the question to my husband and he is even more analytical than I am (I know hard to believe!) and he replied, “If you are making a resolution for something, it would be something that is important to you so why would you make any resolution that you wouldn’t keep.” 

That comment made me re-visit every resolution that I have ever made throughout my entire life.  How serious was I about the promises I made to myself at the turn of each new year?  What example am I setting to our daughters as they see me start and generally not finish things that are really important.  I know that this is a pattern that I have to stop.  

What's my one resolution?
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Delving into the scriptures ​and intentional study is mandatory in these times that we are currently living.  To be grounded in truth is integral to stand firm in our faith.  I want to be so full of God's words that I am able to stand up against anything that may come my way.  
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So how would you answer that question?  What's your one resolution?  Grab your journal, a cup of tea and spend a few moments with it.  Want support with your resolution?  Write it in the comments below.

I have to admit that I come across as a confident person, but really I am a chicken!

Far too often I give up too easily, I start off strong but then I get in my own way.  I don’t think that this is something that I will ever have to stop working on.

I know deep down in my gut things that I need to do and yet I still hold back.  Why oh why do I continually do that!  I know that the still small voice is speaking to me but for some reason I feel like I need wait for a 2x4 to whack me across the head before I listen and do what I am being told.  Am I the only one that does this?

I am making a list of what I know I need to do and I am going to put my view of myself and my abilities to the side and I am going to Be Bravely ME! 

Why am I choosing this? ​

Because others may be missing out on what God has for them because I am not being obedient and I know that things will change in my life for the good when I choose to be obedient.
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So here I am making a public proclamation that I will actively choose to begin working on what the still small voice has laid heavy on my heart.  Ready, set, here I go!!!!!!!

Life sometimes just feels so full. Sometimes too full. I am wondering how it got that way.

Since having health problems for over a year now, I have tried to slow down and yet I still feel like I am running around like a crazy person.  At the end of the day I continue to ask myself, "What did I accomplish today?" And sometimes I can't think of anything but yet my day felt so full.

Why do I choose to do this to myself each day? I know I need to slow down. I had physio today and yikes am I sore right now. I felt really good when I came home but right now I feel really tight and sore, and well, like a truck hit me. Physiotherapists really know how to hurt a person. :)  But I know that I will continue to get better from this. That all of this pain will help me in the long run.

Kinda sounds like how God works in us a lot of the time doesn't it? Well, it is how he works in me most of the time. You know the character building exercises that He puts in our lives, so that we can continue to grow to me more like Him? It really sucks when you are in those places in your life, but then in the end when you can see what you were learning and how it helped you. In a weird and yet wonderful way it all seems worth it in the end.

I guess that is what physio is going to do for me. I am not going to feel like a 90 year old woman anymore. I will be able to run and play with our daughters again. I wish I wasn't in this place right now but I know that I am taking the right steps, on the right path to get to where I need to be. I just have to figure out how to slow down this ride of life that seems like it is spinning out of control. I know I need to cut somethings out of my life, but where do you start cutting? Who do you cut?

I was talking to my husband about having to cut some things and he asks me, that if I decided to leave something, "Who is going to lose out from having me involved?"

It is interesting to look at things from the larger perspective - I start cutting things that I wouldn't mind losing, but what effect is that going to have on other people? There is more to life than ourselves.  Even though that is what the media likes to teach us - 'Life is all about me!" Well, someone else is always going to be affected by every decision that we make. Man! I thought I had difficult decisions to make before, but now it got even worse!

So now my brain hurts along with my back. So I am going to bed, and hopefully when I wake up tomorrow I will try to take my day bit by bit and enjoy the day with my husband and our daughters and not worry about the next thing on my to-do list that I feel I need to cross off.  Hey, I bought a new purse today!  Life is good! ​