I see so much pain. The hurt that is spreading across the world today just breaks my heart. I have an overwhelming ache as I think about the needs in the hearts of mankind, and I feel weakness as I wonder "What can I do for so great a need?"
I can honestly admit that I have lost sleep over this - I lay in bed praying and seeking guidance as to how I can help. What can I do? Something needs to be done.
Why am I so obsessed with this?
The pain and hurt I see in the actions of others are an outward expression of the pain they are feeling on the inside. People are carrying around so much pain, they dislike themselves so much that they share it with those around them. This just breaks my heart.
Think for a moment about the positive people in your life.
Can you imagine something hurtful coming from their mouth? People who have peace with who they are - are happy and have no desire or need to hurt others. They are a light in the dark world around them.
Scripture tells us that what is in your heart shines out (Luke 6:45) As I think about my calling to be the hands and feet of Jesus - what kind of light am I? What is my wattage? Am I adding to the pain that I see in the world around me? Are people drawn to my light?
Everyday we have the opportunity to be a light of positivity and love to our families, friends and wherever our path may lead that day. I know that I have wasted too many days and nights worrying about how I can make a difference - how silly. I can make a difference by being the hands and feet of Jesus each day with a servants heart.
I want to leave you this promise found in Romans:
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope." Romans 15:13
I am tired of losing sleep. I am tired of carrying a burden that is weighing so heavily upon me.
I know for the moment that this burden is mine carry. I know the scriptures say to cast our burdens onto Him because He cares for us (1 Peter 5:7) But this is a different burden. This is a deep desire to see change. To inspire change. To create change.
A friend of mine told me that my biggest hurts are my biggest ministry. I experienced something huge in my life in the three years before I met my husband. I thought that it was a journey that I was meant to travel and I persevered with God's tremendous help and blessings abounded from it. Little did I know that years later God would want to use that experience to help others.
I am now preparing to write a book about this experience and I need your help.
See that button below, please click it. It will take you to a survey that will have you anonymously answer a few questions that will help me as I write this book. I am going away for a week to write. I need you to click that button today.
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